I mean we had also had the same problems like where she would go up to strangers and someone said, Well because she is not aware of even her own family, you know, when she goes up to strangers and things, she just does it, because she doesn’t know You know, you might say, Well don’t do that. She has got no real understand of that persons feelings and stuff. And I said, Oh well, she does. But she said, Well next time she runs off Because [brother] had come round and he said, I am not coming to the supermarket with you. I am sick of running after her, because you were, because one minute you could be standing with your trolley and the next minute she would be off. But it was like an ordeal sort of going out for your shopping because she would either like go up to somebody who she didn’t know or she would run away. We couldn’t understand at the time, why should she run away, go out of the building. So and you were always like on your guard and because you couldn’t restrain her in reins because she just freaked out because she wouldn’t even let you hold her hand. And sometimes I noticed that it must have been so noisy that she would even sit on the floor and put her hands on her ears like that. So she couldn’t stand the noise.

But I knew that there was something wrong in that sense. Do you know what I mean? And like [brother] would say, Well look she is sitting on the floor. And I would say. I can see her. And he would say, Well why is she doing that? And I said, Because there must be something wrong with her hearing or something, because she tended to go like that with her hands on her ears. That like go shhhhh like it was a real strain and then actually sit on the floor with her legs crossed with her head down and then when the thing it sort of must have come like in a wave, her hands would go to the back of her head at the bottom and then when it sort of passed she would sort of look up and go whooo like that. As if like it was a real bad, you know like a torrent of noise or something and then it just petered out.

You know, she had this look even from when she was a tiny baby. I got the impression that she thought you were really stupid. It was the look she gave you as if to say you are just so pathetic. Do you know it is awful strange, even from when she was about six or seven months, like she had this play mat and it had animal noises on and like she didn’t like you holding her hand or she didn’t like you picking her up or anything and I would have her hand and I would push it onto this sheep sound and it would be ‘baaa like that and she would look as if to say, “Now isn’t that stupid. Why on earth are you doing that?”

And I would look at her and I thought she is looking at me as if I am really thick you know, and I am going, “Ooh this makes a lovely sheep noise.” And I would go to grab her hand and she would try and pull away from you, you know. And I would say, “Well look.” And I would press and I would go, “Oh it is a sheep.” She would go as if to say “Oh you are really sick. Why are you enjoying that?” See what I mean? But it was like all canny, do you know what I mean as if they knew things you didn’t, which you shouldn’t have off but yet other things they didn’t do. See what I mean? But it was always like that as if everything was too much trouble for her. Even like if I tried to show her how to crawl, I would be crawling on the floor and she would go and look and me like as I was really daft.

And I would try and pull her up on her knees and her arms, but it was like she didn’t seem to have any strength in her forearms. So like she would go to one side and sort of go on her back and she would just lie there, she wouldn’t even try and get up. She would just lie there but she would look at me as if to say, “Why on earth are you making me do this? It is so silly.” You know, like, as if she just didn’t want to do anything and like because it seemed more harder for her to use four limbs in then it was two which should be the other way round. It is easier to crawl then it is to walk, with her it was easier for her to walk, because she was only used to the two limbs.

I know it sounds daft but when I started like leaning her against chairs and stuff and she just dropped a couple of times and I thought ‘oh, you know, ‘she is not going to like this, but because she didn’t cry, you know, you used to feel sorry for her in case she was hurt and you wouldn’t really know. And she seemed to pick it up really quick but then I realised maybe later that she didn’t really have any fear of things as most babies would and they would start to cry if they fell. But it was only massive, like a week or so and she started to walk all on her own, which I was really surprised. But she never crawled or anything up to the twelve months and I thought well if she is not going to crawl or anything, or even shuffle or even try and move she has got to have some mobility. So that was the idea of trying to get her to sort of walk.