I have got him that he goes five days a week to Autism Initiative which is a day centre for autistic people and he is doing very well. It is incredible. He has started, about eighteen months ago maybe, he has been going there three years, he started making models, making villages. He is doing the Eiffel Tower at the moment, but they are like big, like miniature villages and they look up, whatever he is going to do they look it up on the computer and then they do a printout and then they decide how they are going to do it. And when someone comes to look round Brian takes the people round, he tells me. And they found out that he likes fishing and he goes fishing. The first time or the second time he lost his rod. They got it in though. It is not his it is theirs but he actually… the fish took the rod as well.

And we went to see [psychologist] in June. So Brian had come home in December and by June I went to see this psychologist because he seemed to fit what they were saying about autism. But in many ways I didn’t want to admit that it could be, at that stage, because all the years of it not being but when I went to see [psychologist]. I suppose I may be a bit Asperger’s because he came here and I went there, you know, I didn’t realise he did …. And I was waiting at his house and eventually we did meet up because he came later and I was still waiting at his house. I am very … you know I thought maybe he has broke down. And he spent a long time listening and observing Brian and after a couple of hours he said, and he had got various reports, he had got medical things, some that I had sent him I think and from then he said, “Well there is no doubt in my mind that Brian certainly is autistic with the Asperger’s.” I said, “He can’t be. He can’t be.” And he said, “Yes.”

And from then I could ask [psychologist] questions like why does he do this, so why does he do that? And every Christmas he wants a watch, a bloody watch for Christmas I said every year it is the same. And you have got boxes of them, you know you don’t want them… That is Christmas. And I said, “You know, when I buy him things does he not want them?” And he said, “Well has he asked for them?” “No. But he would like them.” He said, “How do you know he would?” I said, “Well I thought he would.” And he said, “Well no, he doesn’t, does he?” He said, “He won’t say to you.”

And it was from then after that, after [psychologist], I saw him a couple of times. I found it extremely upsetting, I have got to admit I did because I saw the mistakes that had been made. The mistakes that even I, you know, that I had found this, I had done that. Why hadn’t a mother recognized what was wrong with her son? And then from the minute I found out about autism it became easier in other ways. I stopped saying to Brian, “Brian will you stop doing that with your hands,” because he can’t stop. Sometimes I will say to him, “Brian give it a rest will you. You are doing my head in.” And then he will say, “Oh sorry, mum.” But that was something that I wasn’t aware of. I did not know that Brian doesn’t understand everything I say to him and apparently he has got these safety words, ‘yes mum, ‘no mum which doesn’t mean he has understood me but he looks like he has. So when ever anyone ever would say anything to him, he would say ‘yes, and he would yes to anything, you know, he just. Because there are some words, if you say his name and say it sharply he will listen otherwise you know he switches off.

Christine But last year we took him to London and we went on Eurostar to Paris. I would say it was successful. You just need a few months to get round. It was only a day trip and it was unfortunate that coming back there was four or five hours delay, four of them on the train because something had broken down in the tunnel and it had to be the train we were on [laughs] …
(child)’ It was horrible.
Christine It had to be the train that we were on. But it was held up but he wasn’t bad. He actually loved it. I found it, I found it embarrassing I have got to admit. I did explain to the lady going down. Brian, because the seats were reserved but he was actually at that side of me and not on the four, so he was sat with three French people and he loved it because he had not really heard anyone speak in French apart from bits on television, so his eyes never left them and he was over the table like this. So the lady… she had two children so I did say to her at one stage. “I am sorry about my son, but he finds you fascinating because you speak in a different language and he is autistic and Asperger’s.” And she said, “That is fine, fine, don’t worry.” But coming back it was a lady, a young lady and two men. I don’t think they noticed him, but he did the same for all those hours, just staring at them, you know, and he doesn’t even look away. There is no embarrassment, you know, he doesn’t look away, and you have to keep saying to him, “Brian will you stop doing that, will you stop it,” you know.

He does like [laugh] he does like unscrewing things especially taps. He used to be very good with taps. He is better since I got the new, it is like a shower tap even in the kitchen, it is a small one; that doesn’t seem to fascinate him but he likes the ones, the old fashioned ones that he can undo the screw. But he will stand by the sink all day, making drinks and that is why he goes to a day centre five days a week. That was the main reason why they funded all that because of him living in the kitchen and that is when you talk about life that is, it doesn’t sound much, but it is extremely difficult because let’s face it, there is about twelve tiles in the kitchen. It is extremely small and a large person… Brian is six foot five and if you get the two dogs in as well, you can’t get past him. When you want to make something you have literally got to say to him, “You have got to go out of here Brian, out of this kitchen.” And then he will hang by the door and he is watching you.

So then you can’t do anything really because it is too much trouble. You know where I love, I used to love doing dried flowers, baking, all kinds of different things, you are very limited. You have to do it while he is still in bed if he is not at the day centre. Weekends, Saturday is okay because he has a lie in on a Saturday. He has heard people talking that they have lie ins on a Saturday and years ago I would have said I would never leave him in bed past 9 oclock ever. Now I will leave him in bed as long as he likes [laughs]. You know, usually the latest is about 2 oclock when he gets up but he needs a lie in because people have lie ins on a weekend. Well that is fine you know, because I can have the kitchen and it is not that because he is making drinks all day he is spilling stuff up all day and you are cleaning there and then you come out and then you go back in later and it looks, and you thinks oh my God and it is not a bi, you know there is milk, there is coffee and it is mixed and he drinks weird, he drinks cold coffee sometimes at the bottom with a spoon in the cup and you know, you walk in and you see this and you think, and the bin has all got stuff. It is horrendous.

And of course the bathroom is straight across and he loves bathrooms as well because obviously they have got taps and I think he likes the mirror too. So you know if you get him out the kitchen he is in… and you can see the bathroom here is straight across. So you can’t get rid of him [giggle]. And I did have a thing when I first got him home that I had the sofa, I had the other stuff in here and I made that a bedroom for me but it is impossible because at night Brian is in the corridor there and it shadows with it being such an old house and he is moving his fingers and you are trying to watch television or you are trying to read and all you see are these fingers going…. It drives you made. It really does. So I thought I can live without that.

I have actually got him now that at night he will come in here. Not every night. On a Saturday night he will come in the sitting room to me only on a Saturday night, just for that an hour and a half, that seems to be regular now. But on an ordinary week night if I put him UK Gold on he will come in here and watch Fools and Horses and Open All Hours. We have been watching that about two years now. I just hope UK Gold don’t take them off, you know, or if they do they put Norman Widom or someone on, because he quite likes Norman Widom. So, but it is getting him out of the kitchen.

This morning the sun wasn’t out so he will come down with a winter jacket that has got a fur lining, you know. I think I have thrown it away. He can’t do it. He had a bob hat when he was in the home. I think I have thrown that otherwise he would come down with that on as well. And then when it is winter and the sun comes out he will want to go out in a T-shirt, you know and it is okay but sometimes it’s not. And you say, “Brian…” And then you realise he is never going to alter so now you just say to him, “No take it back Brian, don’t bother to argue, just take it back Brian. It is cold outside. Take my word for it.” I think we had an argument Brian and I, in so much as he doesn’t argue he just kept repeating the same thing, when he… it is about five weeks ago and he decided it was hot when it wasn’t and it was when he was off for a day and I couldn’t get through to him that it wasn’t hot, that he needed a coat on. He wanted to go out in a T-shirt. “No you can’t. It isn’t hot. It is cold.” And he was still muttering away that it was hot outside mum, when we were in the car and I am saying, “There is an old lady. See her with that hat on. See her with that scarf on. Well you should stop the car and say to her, take it off it is hot, you should have your sun glasses on.”

And then he looked at me, and he said, “Yes that is right, mum, we should do that.” And I thought, “Oh no.” It is that. And if I can laugh I am okay, you know, you can get round it but sometimes things are not funny. But he tries, you know, he can’t understand… trying to get him to use the microwave. He will use it but it is absolutely, he uses it every day, but he will put… you know if I fall asleep and I tend to, I tend to fall asleep 7 to 8 and then I am awake for hours, he will cook a packet of bacon and he will put it on for 30 seconds and he will have ate it raw. Well it will be and I know because I wake up and I have got the smell and you can’t get through to him what time it’s on. I don’t think he knows hot and cold. It doesn’t seem to bother him with food, whether it is hot or cold. I don’t think he even notices taste half the time. I don’t think he knows if anything is good. He puts ice cream in the microwave and melts it, you know, its got to be, I don’t know why ice cream had got to be melted. I have not worked that one out yet. I was just wondering then, but I don’t know.